SAD DISORDER

Do you ever get in a funk and cant get past your front door? I would never want to talk about it so I will just write. But it is the worst FEELING in the world. I know I am the kind of person that all the doctors talk about with SAD disorder, that is Seasonal Affective Disorder. I have always been this way, but growing up in TC ,the summers are my best time. Winters, I tend to not handle as well. But, this is why Juneau and I don't mix well on occation.
I tend to COMPLAIN...alot. I tend to have thoughts that NO ONE CARES and that bed time is a good time...where my children are all quiet and I can do what ever I want...so I think. But in all reality, I end up going and cuddling up in my blankets also.
For today, I'm going to have to open my curtains a little more, force myself to a 15 minute cleaning race, and set a goal to get out of the house in the pouring rain. It won't be until after that, when I will start to feel more human...I know these things.